Struggling to Trust God?


For a long time, I struggled with trusting God to take care of my material needs. I did not have an issue believing that Jesus’ death on the cross gave me eternal life, but somehow money issues seemed impossible. In college, I experienced the same overwhelming anxiety every semester about making tuition payments.

It was my second year at Burman University, and even though God had provided for all my needs in my first year, that did not matter. How would I pay my tuition this year? This question haunted me all summer long. I was petrified of being wrong, of being embarrassed and let down by God. To put my fear in context, after completing my nursing degree, I moved from South Florida to Alberta, Canada to pursue a second bachelor’s degree in religious studies. Many people thought the move was crazy and tried to talk me out of it. But I knew that God was leading me to do this, so instead of starting the nursing career I had worked so hard to secure, I dropped everything and moved to this ridiculously cold place where I did not know anyone.

After weeks of stalling, I could not avoid the finance office any longer. I explained to the director that I believed God wanted me there and would provide for me. Unfortunately, I did not have the required payment, so I was asked to leave campus. With a broken heart, I chose to keep believing God would come through for me, and He did! My tuition was paid that semester by a donation from someone I had never met! That was the last time I was afraid to trust God with my financial needs.

Are you struggling to trust God completely with your relationships, finances, your health, or future? Remember what Paul says in Romans 8:32, “Since he did not spare even his own Son, but gave him up for us all, won’t he also give us everything else?”

Jesus’ death on the cross is proof that He will take care of everything else you need.

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