My God Is Jehovah Jireh

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“Therefore, do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all” (Matthew 6:31-32, ESV). Growing up, I used to believe that life was easy. I assumed that having God in my life would be a breeze. But I was mistaken. The more I put my faith in Jesus, the more trials I faced. The more I trusted Him, the more my confidence was put to the test. I cannot believe how God guided and cared for me during my university years.

In 2011, I started as a working student at the Adventist University of the Philippines. I was sixteen and inexperienced at the time. I was only thinking about getting away from my family and having some fun. Not before long, I was having problems with my academics, finances, and, most importantly, my identity in Christ. I had so many difficulties that I had begun to doubt God’s power in my life.

I remembered every exam week; I always woke up early so I could be the first to line up in the finance office to ask for a temporary permit. It was so often that the finance director already knew me, my mom, my sister, and my dad. I vowed to him so many promises, which most of the time, I broke. There was one time that he did not allow me to get the temporary permit. I was with my mom, and we were so hopeless at that time. So, we went to the church in the light of the day to pray. I can still remember the pleading of my mom to God. My eyes were in tears listening to my mom’s lament to God while on her knees. Praise the Lord for His providence.

Back in my dorm, eating three times a day was not a thing for me, not because I am on a diet, but because my allowance would not allow me to do so. However, praise the Lord. He sent me roommates so we could share our food and survive the day.

My biggest struggle during that time was my identity in Christ. At times, I could not find myself. I had this longing in my heart, and God filled it during a week of prayer. God talked to me through the sermons, and my heart was moved. God indeed answers prayers. He filled my heart with His amazing love.

When I come to think of all the struggles I had back then, I cannot help but praise God for all those years of doubt, tears, and identity crisis that turned into testimonies that I can bring when Jesus comes back again. Now, I want you to think of all those years, months, weeks, and days where God turned your struggles into a great testimony. Isn’t it amazing? God is indeed a God Who provides. Amen!

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